Curses to you, Statcounter!

Who was it that was talking about not checking (or even having) a statcounter the other day? I should have taken her advice. I check my statcounter maybe twice a month, usually just to see if someone has linked to me that I need to thank or some such thing.

Let me just state that I know up front that people do read through Google Reader or Bloglines. I also know just how many (or few) subscribers I have there.

So today I admit to you that it actually made me cry, what I saw there on Statcounter (that and being totally hormonal and sleep deprived with a 3yo who won't.stay.in.her.room. for naptime). Man, what a punch in the ego. I understand people are busy, that people are on feed readers, that people have better things to do than listen to me whine about blog stats. I also know that I used to get many more hits than this.

I had 7 hits so far today. And that's with being linked in Jen's 7 Quick Takes! Yesterday? Five. FIVE! Total. The day before was a whopping nine. Woo hoo I'm so popular! :-P

I *don't* blog to be popular or to get hits. I blog to share things, to think out loud, to converse and laugh and complain and let people do the same.

But FIVE hits? That's demented, and sad, and not even social! (Ten points to the first person who knows movie line that's referring to)

I know I shouldn't care. Detachment, detachment, detachment. It should be my word for 2009.

But I do. My dh is so busy, my kids are disrespectful and argumentative and unhelpful, and my online buddies are my *lifeline* to thinking that just maybe I'm an OK person, worthy of love.

Five. Bleh!

OK, rant over. Thanks to the five of you that read this, LOL!! :)