Dare I hope? Dare I?

The last few weeks have seen lots of stress and exasperated tears here, as I fell in love with houses, only to...feel no peace, realize that if we bought *that* house our kids wouldn't go to college, have one go off the market like lightning. I kept wondering if we should just stay here in our too small house and somehow make do. How I don't know, LOL, I'm just not good at being in a poorly laid out house with 5 intense personalities and all their stuff ON me all the time. But slowly I lost even all peace about the neighborhood I wanted to move to. Yeah, it's peacful and safer out there, but it's also twice the commute for dh, and a whole new set of *everything* from stores to friends to activities. I think dh felt it too, and through some not so sly questioning on my part I'm thinking he would be perfectly happy here in our current town.

Except that "perfect" house is apparently non-existent. It's either RIGHT off a main road (not safe in my mind), or is a huge expensive home on a tiny lot, or is a too small home on a tiny lot w/o any privacy. Oh and that doesn't include those that back right to a huge 10 lane interstate and are STILL expensive (what's up with THAT? LOL) I'm not just thinking of homes currently on the market, either, I look around at ALL the houses and wonder. We currently back-to-trees and so at least in the summer, we have a nice sense of privacy.

Like I said, I felt no peace about moving to the new town, I felt no peace about staying. How, I asked myself, can I reconcile that? And by peace I mean I prayerfully thought about all the options I could see - I was looking for that elusive "Holy Spirit peace" when a decision is right. So when NOTHING felt right, it really bugged me. How can no options be right, including staying?

Sooooo...fast forward to last night. We got a card in the mail introducing a new subdivision being built. A somewhat AFFORDABLE subdivision. On street names like Brook Crossing Drive and _____ Spring Court (SPRING? Did someone say SPRING?) and ____ Creek Way. The roads seem close to stores/library, etc but just far enough away to not be "in town" - just far enough to seem secluded. There are trees, and fields, and I think even a brook somewhere (hence all the Brook/Spring references). I looked up the homes on their website and felt the first sense of peace I have felt in a LONG time about all this. It's not perfect - and I especially never saw myself buying brand new with all that entails - but it seems *right*. Of course I haven't actually been out there, or talked to anyone. ;-)

Dare I hope that this is it? I should take my own advice...hope springs eternal.