Let's just say ...

...that PMS and new curriculums and having a super busy dh DON'T MIX.

Lots of new learning notes up over at Epiphany Prep School, and lots of fodder for confession. We're not going to get ANYWHERE with the loveliness of Oak Meadow and Waldorf if I'm loosing my cool over everything. At least I'm not losing it over the children's work - other than trying to organize 3 different levels with a multitude of interruptions - I'm losing it over all the OTHER things like the constant low level sneakiness/forgetfulness/disobedience or certain children who just float around in a dream and so never ever clean up after themselves. Ahem. Oh and the simple chaos of having a few littles, like the toddler taking off his diaper right over the girls artwork, or him constantly shoving his toothbrush in my face, or the incessant low level whininess...ahem again. Not to mention the 4yo on steriods. Sigh.

But like I said, I need to be the thermostat not the thermometer. I'm realizing I'm a very weak personality, and my children have STRONG personalities. I need to get strong. Not sure how. It's not like I let them get away with disobedience, it's so much more subtle than that - but I know I've been like this around kids "forever" because I felt like my clients when I worked as an SLP walked all over me too. It's one of the reasons I have no business going back to work as an SLP with kids. Adults either want to work or they don't, you can encourage them but you don't have to "force them to fall into line with your very presence" like you need to with kids.

All that being said, my kids are enjoying their new work. My oldest is JAZZED by it. That is good. I hope they remember the work and not the fact that it made their mother's head explode. Boom.