Hey

I wasn't having a party without you.

I've opened this blog back up after making it password protected for awhile.  I needed my space, to process, mostly.  I haven't posted anything here since closing it -- I needed to be strictly in my own life and in my own head without spilling over here.

A week or so ago I opened up Epiphany Springs again (http://epiphanysprings.blogspot.com), but took off all the posts which I had already imported here anyway.  I'm posting my haiku and other poetry there now.  I felt weird putting things on Haiku of a Homeschooler when I'm only 1/5 the homeschooler I used to be. ;-)

I don't know if I'll post here much, we'll see.  I feel like I'm moving on from here, my life has changed so much.  I'm trying to do a poem at least every other or every few days at Epiphany Springs though.  Comments always welcome but I know it's hard to know what to say about 17 syllables, LOL.

I will get you up to speed so that my poems might make more sense if I get into personal stuff - my reunion with my birth mother is going wonderfully well, and we'll meet some time next month.  I'm facebook friends with several other relatives and everyone's been welcoming. I have no other siblings that I didn't know about, but many cousins.  At the same time it is ALL so VERY complicated in my head.  I have not really processed and am just going with the flow...to often be blind sided by tears I have no time for. I don't want to hurt my adoptive parents either... I so wish life were simpler.

Jeffrey has been taken off all his medications for rheumatoid arthritis because he's been doing so well for so long. There is a chance this is a permanent remission. I'm cautiously overjoyed. :)

I got my braces off this week!

Skye, Jane, Batty, and Jeffrey are settling in well to school.  I *definitely* am already sick of the amount of pre-testing, test prep, and testing there is. Where's the real learning?  I'm not even talking standardized testing... just the amount of "fill in these blanks for homework and then there's a quiz on it tomorrow and a test on it Friday" type of stuff.  Not to mention the paperwork and rules and deadlines for me. I feel like I'm  working twice as hard as I was with them homeschooling!  But they are making friends, which we didn't have.  Skye is looking at high schools.   Dh is looking at his bank account dwindle, LOL.

I've missed visiting with you all here.