I think I've hurt someone

Inadvertently, yes.

It is such a convoluted thing. But I can't stop thinking about it lately. I'm not sure whether it's because God is laying it on my heart or because I have anxiety problems, LOL.

It is an internet friend. I only bring it up as "internet friend" instead of "friend" because I think it's the internet that is at the heart of the issue.

A while ago she and I hung out at some of the same places. My admiration of her wisdom and kindness turned to friendship. And then I think I ruined it.

Reason #1 why I'm not just emailing this person - it was a "developing" friendship and I'm afraid that maybe it was only my "hoping" she was my friend and making more of her kindnesses than was really there. But also, I'm "like that" - I'll think the worst of myself and wonder why someone wants to be my friend while the other person is saying, "I've been your true friend for years, Amy, what are you talking about??" LOL But if I was imagining it all, it would just be more humiliating than I can take right now for me to actually talk to this person and have her say, "No, I never really liked you all *that* much."

So anyway. Here I am.

I think this person once in a blue moon reads my blog. I just want to say I'm sorry. There really WAS friendship there, at least on my end! :) I'm so sorry if I hurt you in any way. I truly care about you and your feelings. I let my shyness get the better of me.

OK, now I sound like a stalker! It's really not like that. I just can't stand thinking I hurt someone I care about.

Darn internet. :-P