Saturday's Epiphany

Today found me driving home from a twice yearly total nuthouse children's consignment sale. It was nice to have a few moments alone with my own thoughts.

I was praying and asking God, yet again, what we should do about the house. Do we move? What town do we move to - close to work or farther away? Do we stay and make do? And of course I did my daily wishing I had a crystal ball or The Voice of God just tell me what the future holds so I know how to make the right decision.

Months ago, I sincerely felt that God asked me to start packing. Now, after seeing many different houses with the realtor, I wondered why we weren't finding anything we liked and could afford. Could our current house possibly be the best we could do? (insert picture of me looking faint)

All week I've been planning what I would do with this house if we stayed, and I actually started to *like it* and think it might just work. So in my prayer time I wondered why I should be packing, and at the same time falling in love with my own house?

That's when it hit me.

Contentment.

I think God wants me to be content here. I'm getting the feeling that we will still be moving in the not-too-horribly-distant future, but in the meantime, I am to be content. The grass is not greener on that 1 acre cool house plot. Well, OK, that's not exactly true. The ACTUAL grass IS greener on the lot of our favorite house. ;-) We have a lot of weeds mixed in with our dying grass. But seriously, the proverbial grass, even on that favorite house, is not a better shade than our own. Yes, there is more room, a nice yard, a cool potential school room, a neat sun room (oooo, somebody stop me) ...but there is also a longer commute for St. DH, a more expensive mortgage, a well and septic that we are not used to, neighbors we don't know,more to clean, more to mow, and utility bills that are much higher than what we pay now. Oh and this particular house is under contract, LOL. So, not greener, just a different shade. I guess my job is to determine which shade is the most flattering for us. :)



Now godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content. - I Timothy 6:6-8